sometimes I just don't know why I try....

I've always been this way my whole life... I'm the friend that tries really hard to make everyone happy, and always calls, and always thinks of the ideas and makes the plans. I can write about this fairly freely on here because some of the friends I'm talking about have never actually checked out my blog after I have mentioned it and sent the link to them several times. I have some really close friends who don't check it all the time, or write on it all the time but that doesn't bother me at all because they DO respond and reciprocate when I really need them. But there are just these really sad moments that I seem to come across more often in my life than I'd like to where I feel so walked on, and unappreciated. I go through months of "friendship" and interaction with these people and "think" that they are good friends, or they really care, and want to keep up with me. And one of those moments just walks up to me and slaps me in the face so hard I can't remember who I am. it throws me off majorly.. it makes me rethink everything I've ever said to these people, or anything they've ever said to me wondering if it was all a show or all just to "be nice" etc... UGh...

I wish things were simple people never talked to other people unless they meant it and vise verse. I tend to be real simple and blunt in my thinking like that.. if I don't feel genuine or have a whole lot to say I don't waste my time or their's until I can come up with something valuable to say that will make that person happy, or make them feel just a little bit better than maybe they did a min ago.. things like that. (this is what I mean by why do I even try) because I come to these sad moments in my life where I realize the friends I think I had don't think of me that way, they don't make sure what they say to me will encourage me, or make a difference in my day, they don't just mind there own business when they really have nothing good to say and make me feel they are just chit chatting and going through the "friend motions" with me. *sigh* oh well.. I just seem to be really naive and gullible about people and their intentions and their value of friendship.

anyway.. just needed to get that off my chest. I'm thankful for friends of mine that are very true and very honest with me and very real. I don't have to worry about them "faking it" or going through the motions with me, they either like me or they don't. they either enjoy talking to me or they don't. they either want to get to know me or they don't. it seems pretty simple to me.

well... off to figure out dinner for Allie and I. Shaun won't be home until late tonight. ( I feel an pizza and 1/2 gallon of ice cream with a spoon cuddled up on the couch night coming on)...

thanks for listening..

life update (may be long and coma inducing)

well... I'm in my last week of training at the new job! yay! I actually get my own desk and a much more flexible schedule next monday! ;) I'm excited! everything is going well, and I'm still enjoying it. I've had a lot less stress since I changed jobs, it's been delightful :)

I've been thinking a lot about where to send Allie to preschool this coming sept, and I have no clue what I'm doing or where to send her or if we can even afford it. All these firsts with kids are hard, of course I've never had to do it before so how do parents know what to do ya know?

We are still on for our vacation to "Hanna Montana" as Allie would say lol. I'm so glad my new employer let me have it off! So we're trying to figure out how to plan our trip out and if we'll go bankrupt just from the gas prices since we're driving there and probably taking the truck and the dog so we'll have room for everyone and everything.

I'm sooo loving the weather (when it's been sunny) lately. We've had a few days of 70's ish weather and it's been absolutely lovely! we went to the beach a couple weekends ago on a nice saturday like that, had a blast and got a little sun. Last weekend it was really pretty too, Shaun and I bought a couple of barrel planters and I planted some white and dark pink flowers in them in the front yard and enjoyed the sun.

We've been hanging out with a couple who's son goes to Allie's day care lately. They invited us to his birthday party and we've gotten together a couple times after that. I haven't really had a friend who has a child that we can hang out with regularly. I have friends from high school who don't have kids yet, and friends from church that have kids but we don't see all the time or very often anyway and they have their friends from high school that they always hang out with. So it's nice to sort of find a couple that's within our element. :) we're having a good time. Their son and Allie play really good together, he's a good little boy. And we have a lot of the same interests so we really get along well. anyway... I'm just always thankful for new friends :)

I'm posting this on the laptop from my bedroom cause I'm "guarding" or watching Gracie after her spay today, poor thing she's pretty tired. Keeping Allie and Sadie away from her is hard and keeping her in is hard too, she wants out of course. lol anyway, there's been a lot going on lately and I've been cut off from my second life on the internet so I haven't been able to keep up like I used to. I miss all my friends online at momsville and hope you all are doing great! shoot me an email anytime (I try to check it every night) :)

peace, love and cookies.

My LAST Day!

I'm a big bottle of excitment! lol! Everyone's being really nice today!haha so far I got a card and a hand made beaded bracelet from a friend here, and lots of goodbyes. We're doing mexican food for lunch today, and Greta and another guy from work and I are going to do some Irish Car bombs after work! (carol ann's, baileys, and guiness) YUM! and maybe play some pool too...

So ya this is it! I'm going to NOT miss it here! lol.... but I will miss some good friends I've made a long the way of course.

I'll be posting about my new job as soon as I get a day or two under my belt :)


so long....

hello.....

Well it's my last week at Carlton....

It's going to be long but short at the same time... there are some great friends that I've gotten to know over the span of 2 years, and when you think about spending the majority of your days 5 days a week with people at work for 2 years of your life you've invested a lot with some people and with others you've endured and soaked up a lot of emotions and experiences that will stay with you forever. So I'll be trying to touch base with some of those people I've invested in and have a relationship there and make sure they've got my phone # to keep in touch and let them now I'll miss them. Other's I'll be rejoicing that I won't have to deal with them anymore! hehehe And of course I'm getting anxious and a little nervous for the new position, and the new relationships and people to endure lol not knowing what I'll come face to face with, the good, the bad and the ugly.... they're all out there lurking in the shadows waiting for any moment to leap out and ..... oh sorry got a little carried away there.. ;) you get the picture.

on the lighter side, I got to go shopping for some new work clothes! yay! shopping! lol... that always makes a girl feel good :P

New job, new journey, new challenges...

Well it happend within 2 days! I got a call thursday and interviewed friday and got an offer extended to me the same day! I hope that this new job will have the environment I'm looking for and less stressful all around. They seemed to be pretty nice, and understanding even when Sadie was hurt that day and they had to wait for me.

anyway...I sort a wish I could take a week off in between this job and the other, but I doubt my boss now will go for that, hahah. but I might just ask :)

no you're eyes aren't playing tricks on you, there really is a swing in her room!

We saw it at IKEA when we got our bed frame, and couldn't resist! how cool is it to have a swing in your own room! lol... .she absolutely loves it ;)

This is our cat "stretch"

Allie's Easter Dress (one for her dolly too)

I found this dress that came with a little dress for a doll, and I had to get it! she had to try it on and put it on her dolly :) I'm thinking I'll let her take dolly to church with her just cause it's so darn cute! hehehee..

Allie wanted to help me take a picture with her princesses camera :)

More snow pics!

Here's some more that my brother took :)

Playin at the mountain!

We had such a blast! it was a little slow goin with parking, and how busy it was up there since it was sooo sunny and beautiful, and finding a good place for all of us, esp Allie to have a good safe place to tube. But once we found our little spot and got goin it was awesome! Allie did so good, and thank goodness her snow clothes worked well, she didn't get wet at all. My brother came up with us which was awesome, and took a lot of pictures which we really awesome cause I wanted to make sure I got some but I was really keeping a tight watch on Allie since it was so slippery and the snow wasn't packed much and we kept falling down as far as 3 feet or more with each step in most places. I had no room for taking pictures, I was on high alert with Allie running around! :)

Here's a few Jenn took, and I'll post more when I get some from my brother :)

Allie loved the snow!

This is Anne and I goin down the hill! poor girl was about to fly off the back! but it was fun!

Anne and Nate were trying to go down together and Nate was sliding before she got on so she grabbed on to his hood (kinda choking him, hahaha.... whoops!) she eventually got on with him and took off down the hill!

Anne and Jenn

Shaunie and I ;)


Jason and Jenn :)

Anne and Nate :)

THE GIRLS! :)